idiot! gosh!

you'd think i would have learned by now. i'm not even sure why this would matter to me, i mean, i've had plenty of dates since then.

it's 'cause i know i loved her. and was in love with her.

probably best i never had sex with the last two. it would have been even worse after Leslie dumped me, since i let myself really like her. having sex with an emotional connection is really great, but then the letdown is in proportion.

dammit. i reckon i'll just have to not love anyone too much again *what a drama queeni can be!* and just have meaningless but great sex the rest of my life.

good thing no one else reads this!

test

just what is the default color here?

that check

it didn't show up until today, which is about two weeks late, more or less. now that really kind of sucks. but it's at least started.

anyway, i've started using picasa, which is a google deal, as is this blog. i didn't know that for a while, but any pictures i load here can come from my online deal. that's actually pretty cool, as it is easier to access than photobucket.

i may make this a more, pop culture commentary blog in the near future. like talking about the current state of wrestling- why does the wwe think having a the MacMahon family talk about personal issues will make their ratings go up? i'm thankful- i thought for sure Stephanie would tell Vince that the kid she just had was hers...

no, i don't miss Russo's "writing" at all.

mail

there's my little girl. i think she's bored.

did i get mail today? i don't know. here's hoping i get my unemployment check, small as it may be. i mean, there's nothing Spherion can say bad about me, unless they want to be complete dicks. which may or may not be the case. but what a hassle that would be.

got up far too late to go to the spa. maybe i will. it's only 20 minutes away.