idiot! gosh!

you'd think i would have learned by now. i'm not even sure why this would matter to me, i mean, i've had plenty of dates since then.

it's 'cause i know i loved her. and was in love with her.

probably best i never had sex with the last two. it would have been even worse after Leslie dumped me, since i let myself really like her. having sex with an emotional connection is really great, but then the letdown is in proportion.

dammit. i reckon i'll just have to not love anyone too much again *what a drama queeni can be!* and just have meaningless but great sex the rest of my life.

good thing no one else reads this!